We grew up around books.  Lots and lots and lots of books.  My parents had a large house in Rockland County, NY, and it had a giant, unused space in the basement that my dad had fitted as a library with built in bookshelves and a huge entertainment system.   He’d watch video lectures on great philosphers and art.  When they moved to Virginia, the house was a lot smaller, but pop found some unused space under the deck and had it built out:


This room is much smaller than the one they had in Rockland, and the books aren’t organized in any way (in Rockland they were by topic), but it’s twice what you see in these pictures.  The shelves are filled with knick knacks and just general junk from my parents’ travels around the world, the walls are covered with framed photos taken by my father.  My dad has hosted numerous gatherings in this library, usually a bunch of Afghan guys sitting around, smoking cigarettes and drinking bourbon, talking about politics and religion and cursing the East and the West.  Women folk usually stay upstairs, but I always have ventured down to join the men and I usually just listen and take it all in.  The knowledge that can be gained from sitting with people who have lived more is amazing, even if what they say, factually, is completely off base.

But, back to the library, because there is a point here.  I am like a kid in a candy store when I go downstairs.  Or, let’s just say it – a nerd in a library.  There are no return dates or overdue fines (although pop knows when something has gone missing for too long and all his books are stamped).  And there is a book on just about any topic you could imagine – from tantric sex to vegetarianism and everything in between.  We have a photo book on Carnival in Brazil.  Why?  I have no idea.  We have volumes on Islam, Christianity, the Bagvad Ghita.  There is nothing off limits or banned or censored.

Today I went down because I knew I had contributed John Rawls’ “A Theory of Justice” to the collection at one point and I wanted to retrieve it.  I bought the book in college when I was doing my philosophy thing.  It was used then, and now it’s even more battered and bruised.

While I have vague recollections of the premise of his theory (veil of ignorance, etc.) I’m eager to re-read and re-evaluate and see how much I’ve evolved since my dress in black, smoke cigarettes and pretend that I’m Simone De Beaouvoir days of old.

While most days, now, are spent with Federal Sentencing Guidelines or trial transcripts, heading down to the library reminds me that there is more to the practice of law than getting up and putting on a skirt, heels and grabbing your files.  There is theory, there are thoughts and ideals.  The room is filled with why I studied philosophy and why I became a lawyer.  And while we debate back and forth about innocence, justice, and trial tactics, the room under the deck proves that there is room for engagement, disagreement and discussion on all topics big and small.

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